Jyothi

My mother in law for the first time offered to babysit on my husband birthday. So for the first time in 2 years we could go out together. As the weather gods might have heard that because all hell broke loose, there was a thunderstorm and if it was not raining it was hailing.

We went out anyway and we we had fun. It was so nice to be out once again with Daniele and just have a beer and a chat. Think we both really needed that.

Now it is sunny again and hopefully spring really starts this time.

Daniele saw this shop on the airport in America, and it made me very curios what they where so went surfing the net. They are some rubber Dutch wooden shoes. I love them , I want a pair for this summer as bright as possible.

The other day I saw a Dutch documentary called Beperkt houdbaar (short expiry). Which talks about the beauty industry and how women are being talked into looking like something that is impossible the natural way. How the models in magazines are being photoshoped in such an extend that nothing is the way it really is, and how women mirror themselves to those and try to achieve that “look” through plastic surgery and anti wrinkle cream. I got shocked by the amount of work perfectly healthy and normal looking women got done to there body to be able to look young an “fresh”.

So I have been thinking as i am a bit heavier then i should be, why is it that i want to loose weight?

Is it because of what the rest of the world expects me to do?

Part yes, my mother in law keeps mentioning that i should loose some weight and she notices every pound that i gain or loose. But she is very worried about her looks and spends fortunes on antiwrinkle cream and goes to the hairdresser every other week. 

Other part i just want to be able to buy cloths that i like, and unfortunately in Italy that is only sold in small sizes.But i could make the cloths myself. 

And then an other part is for my health just recently my father and grandmother are started having heart problems and in many ways i look a lot like them. So from a health point of view i really think i should.

Then the stretch marks on my tummy, i can actually say i am not ashamed of those, they are the marks of my 2 boys and worth every single stretch and then some.

So for my health i will loose some weight but for the rest i think is stay the way i am. Atleast i am real and not fake and if other people prefer fake let them have it in the end they end up wanting real things anyway.

When I was in school like most people I had to read Dutch literature, and write essays about those books. Maybe I read the wrong books but the books I read I found them very hard and actually boring. Maybe I should try to read some of those books now I am older maybe they will make more sense. Who knows.

I love to read. But books that talk about all the psychological problems of the main character and of loads of sexual relations between people and about cheating for me are just not interesting. I read to relax or to learn something new.

There are also some books that I have read recently that I found interesting. One talked about the consequences of industrialization of the milk farms in a small village in the east of Holland. Hoe god verdween uit Jorwerd

And another of black prince that was given as part of a deal to the king of Holland in the 1800′s and how his life was. De zwarte met het witte hart .

Now they are having a competition in holland of the best book, http://www.hetbesteboek.nl. And i read about half the books that are in teh final selection and i can not remember much of what they actually talked about. That is how big an impression the made on me. I am curios the see who wins and would love to read something of Kader Abdolah ,because i think his view on the world/life might be intresting.

Daniele is in America for a week for his work, today is the second day and I will be glad when it is finished. Then the normal week start and it is a bit less hard. I really do not like it when he is gone in the weekend.

Today I had a very nice day with my mother in law and the kids eating pizza on the beach. The kids had loads of fun splashing in the sea and running around in the sun. But still miss my husband I prefer to spend my days with him. Well the kids are really tired and sandy so will put them in a nice warm bath and after dinner to bed early.

Daniele is crazy about photography at the moment, and he really has a good eye for it as well. The other day he showed me the following site http://www.lomography.com/ is about people nuts about old Russian cameras that are now being reproduced and improved.

So surfing that site I found the following camera http://shop.lomography.com/colorsplashcamera/ I think it is really cool and am thinking of asking it for my birthday which is still very far away…..:(.

I finished the book i was talking about a few days back. I actually understood the whole story and liked it alot.

My mother on law already gave me a new book to read, “The Anger of Aubergines” from Bulbul Sharma. Wich is a mix between a cooking book and a novel, two of my favorite things, cooking and reading,mixed in one book intresting

The road ahead is empty 
It’s paved
With miles of the unknown
Whatever seems to be your destination
Take life the way it comes
Take life the way it is

Horizon in the distance
So close and yet so far away
You shouldn’t be surprised
when on arrival
the dream has flown away
Or fears not have to stay

The road ahead
never gives away a promise

The road ahead
is a highway
or a dead end street

Raindrops on your windscreen
They fall
from heaven or from hell
You drive into the light
or into darkness
Uncertainty as your guide

The road ahead
never gives away a promise

The road ahead
is a highway
or a dead end street

The road ahead
never answers any questions

And nothing is sure
along the way
Not even tomorrow
With miles of the unknown
ahead of you

The road ahead is empty
It’s paved
With miles of the unknown
Whatever seems to be your destination
Take life the way it comes
Take life the way it is

Lyrics City to City

It is carnival at the moment and coming from the north of Holland I do not have a lot of feeling with it. The last time I dressed up was when i was 11. But yesterday we went to a carnival party organized by a group of people from flickr. I was a bit worried about the dressing up part and a bit nervous as well not knowing any of these people, but i have to admit i had a very good time and actually managed to talk a bit about something else then the weather and kids.

The party was kept in a restaurant that is part of a castle in Sambuci, so a nice atmosphere and good food always help to make a party go.  The kids have been running around till midnight, Joshua charmed a 12 year old girl very much i think, because she kept searching him and he kept searching her….and me and Daniele kept cracking up laughing.

Here you will find the pictures . And I got the feeling this will not be my last carnival party, only next time i prepare a better costume in advance.

I am very sleepy today, it is 2 nights now that i go to sleep and for my feeling open my eyes 5 minutes later, but it actually is 7 hours later. I do not feel like i have slept at all. wake up thinking about the same things as i did before actually falling asleep…….