The other day I saw a Dutch documentary called Beperkt houdbaar (short expiry). Which talks about the beauty industry and how women are being talked into looking like something that is impossible the natural way. How the models in magazines are being photoshoped in such an extend that nothing is the way it really is, and how women mirror themselves to those and try to achieve that “look” through plastic surgery and anti wrinkle cream. I got shocked by the amount of work perfectly healthy and normal looking women got done to there body to be able to look young an “fresh”.

So I have been thinking as i am a bit heavier then i should be, why is it that i want to loose weight?

Is it because of what the rest of the world expects me to do?

Part yes, my mother in law keeps mentioning that i should loose some weight and she notices every pound that i gain or loose. But she is very worried about her looks and spends fortunes on antiwrinkle cream and goes to the hairdresser every other week. 

Other part i just want to be able to buy cloths that i like, and unfortunately in Italy that is only sold in small sizes.But i could make the cloths myself. 

And then an other part is for my health just recently my father and grandmother are started having heart problems and in many ways i look a lot like them. So from a health point of view i really think i should.

Then the stretch marks on my tummy, i can actually say i am not ashamed of those, they are the marks of my 2 boys and worth every single stretch and then some.

So for my health i will loose some weight but for the rest i think is stay the way i am. Atleast i am real and not fake and if other people prefer fake let them have it in the end they end up wanting real things anyway.

Written by Jyothi Muscetta

a healer, an intuitive, a wife, a mother, a lover, a cook, a baker, a reader, a garderner, a crafter, a creative thinker and a traveler.